Maybe you aren’t supposed to fix it. I have been struggling with an inability to let things go. If it’s broken I have to fix it. But sometimes it is possible to try too hard. Sometimes, the harder you try the more damage you do. Sometimes you can desire something so much that you actually just push it farther away. I personally push and push and push until either I’ve managed mash it back together as a shadow of what it was before or I pulverize it until all I have left is sand and a sense of failure.
I’ve been told so many times, Ryan, maybe you can’t fix it, just let it go. Yet still I try, and still I push, I’m pretty stubborn like that. But last night I was struck by an example that was directly applicable to my life, and I said this myself, “maybe we are trying to hard to get what we want out of this, trying so hard to restore a something we’ve lost that we are actually making attaining it harder”. Considering the personal trouble I have with this I was kind of surprised that I even thought about it this way. It was an eye-opener in a way.
So, if we can’t fix it, what are we supposed to do? It’s something I’m not good at, not at all. Some things can only be fixed in one way, by letting God handle it. If something is broken, and despite your best attempts you can’t seem to get anywhere, maybe it isn’t meant to be fixed, at least not by you or not right now. God has His plan, and no matter how hard we try, we can never know better than Him, we can’t do something now if He wants it done later. Maybe He has a way for you to fix it later, or maybe He will fix it through some other method.
It’s incredibly hard, I know, I’ve suffered a lot of things because of an inability to let go and let God. But learning patience and to trust in our amazing savior to do things in His way in His time is the only way we’ll be able to be at peace with some of the things in our lives. So whether it is a group trying to rekindle some lost spark, or trying to rebuild a tattered relationship with a friend, sometimes, we just need to let go.
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Jen:
ReplyDeleteSounds very much like the problem I was having. >> and now I'm suffering the consequences. I am really stubborn and, in trying way too hard to hold on to something that was extremely precious to me, I just shoved it further away to the point where I very quickly lost it completely and now I'll never get it back. I really hate myself for that.
Kevin:
ReplyDeleteJen, don't hate yourself, in the end everything turns out the way it was ment to, just live your life and in ur situation it wasn't ment to be but something else is gonna come up that will take the place, probably something even better just don't blame urself u had no control over what was gonna happen in the end only how it happened. so lift your head up and in life with its infinious twist and turns let it take u to where u were ment to be where everything will allright :)
Kevin:
ReplyDeleteAnd ryan as i'm sure u know god always has a plan for each and every one of us, and with that will bring u happieness and all this won't even matter then, don't dwell on the past because it will only anger u, and don't jump into the future because u will lose ur place in today. i've had a similar problem and a good friend once told me to lissen to live your life by T.I. and to live my live and forget about all those other things hope this helps a little :)
Crystal:
ReplyDeleteI think you're right, after all you've tried and all the heartache its brought you, this is the best plan of action.
Charlie
ReplyDeleteAnd unfortunatlly there are some things that you cannot fix. I wish I could give you some insightful information about how to fix it, but sadly I'm looking for the same thing. How do you fix something so broken you can barely identify the pieces??
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